The Darkness of Doubt
As you move ahead spiritually there will be times when you will experience doubt about what you have encountered. Did that really happen to me or did I just imagine it? This is a normal reaction. Cast out all doubt by seeking Divine Intervention.
At times you will enter a dry period where you cannot even pray. God is giving you time to reflect on what you are doing and especially on your prayers. You will begin to pray on a much different level by becoming the prayer. This takes time so be patient. Just one prayer prayed with your total presence, is worth more than a thousand mumbling ones when you are not in the present moment. You will then become then prayer with patience. This is not an easy task but you will be given sufficient graces to say one prayer in full awareness of your words, the meaning, and who you are praying to. After your first experience, you will need time to rest. Enjoy.